Okay, I've had a bummer of a week, and yesterday was particularly hard. Got bad news on multiple fronts within hours of each other. I fell apart a bit. Thank you so much for all the kind and encouraging words. I have a lot of gratitude for a community that responds as constructively as you did, both in comments and emails.
After a mini melt down yesterday, I'm doing much better today. I try so hard to be positive for everyone else in times of trial, but I manage to forget to do that for myself. Not any more though. I am a smart and capable woman, and I'll work through it all in time. Besides, like one of you wisely pointed out, what seems like settling now, may just be a pathway to the opportunity I'm looking for. That's a much better way to look at it.
Nothing has really changed except my attitude, but it's amazing how different things seem in a new day.