I'm not sure whether to apologize for my absence, or simply accept that it is what it is and people can guess why I've been preoccupied.
I gave birth to my first child on November 2nd of last year.
My new found status of mother has not been an easy one. I cannot even begin to explain the world I've been living in for the last 6 months. But I can say that the Tao has been all but forgotten. More to the point, the person I was before has also been forgotten.
Along with the normal challenges of caring for a newborn, I have had numerous other obstacles thrown in my path such as jaundice, colic and a high needs baby.
I love my son beyond measure, but I am in desperate need of finding myself again. I need the position of mother to be one of the things that describes me, not the thing that defines me. It will be a struggle, for sure, but my happiness and sanity requires it.
So here's to a new challenge for this blog. Writing is something I've always found cathartic, so I am going to try my best to venture back here. I hope no one will mind that my posts will likely be different, because I am different.
But my journey continues...